A Walk in Wonderland

Robbie decided it would be best to take me on a walk today. He says I've been getting worse and worse since Brian's death, and that a walk in the forest would do me some good. It had snowed not too long ago, and the birds were almost nonexistent, but Robbie insisted on taking some pictures. I thought I would post them.

 I don't know what made Robbie take this picture, I think he only wanted to make me feel better. At least the sound of the water was nice.

...The cemetery where Brian was buried in. I didn't want to post the picture of his headstone, as I still think it would be an invasion of his privacy.  I should have brought flowers to put on his grave.

 This picture is so unnaturally dark, I don't know why. It must be something in Robbie's camera.

His Body

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They found Brian's body today, it was staked to..to a tree...in the forest. Blood everywhere, the papers say that his organs were cut out of his stomach. It was staked high up in a tree...higher than a human could climb, but..the cuts..they say that it couldn't have been done by an animal.
I've been talking to Robbie over it, in order to try to calm myself down. Brian's family is probably doing worse than I am..I wonder if I'll be able to attend the funeral....I just..
I can't...why would anyone do this?
Why the week after Christmas? Why...

Pictures

As promised, here are the pictures that Brian showed me. (I'm sorry for the poor quality, I blame my phone. They were a lot better in person). I wonder where or when he took these; I guess he took them in the forest nearby, but as far as I can tell from a distance all of the trees have lost their leaves.

First Day..Again

Today was the reopening of the Day Care. About half the children altogether had left the day care, and I could see why. The police had given out small, vague details about the whole indecent and I guess parents weren't too happy to hear such things. Brian wasn't among the kids there, which I thought was strange until I realized it was Wednesday.

When the children went out to play, we had most of the staff (including myself) out there with them. I noticed the scenery changed around the day care. None of the day care itself was harmed, but the forest near the day care was. The trees nearest the day care looked partly destroyed, their limbs were torn off as if lightning had hit them, or something had crashed into them.  It wasn't like that the day Brian vanished, but I hadn't been near the day care until today. If Brian is at the day care tomorrow, I'll talk to him (but I'll try not to ask too many questions about it all).

Brian's Art

I was able to get some pictures off of Brian, even one he made for me. I wasn't allowed to post ones that had his name on, so I only took the ones I was allowed to have. They are strange, and very disturbing for me. I hope he gets through his nightmares.

 This was the first one he did; he made many of these over and over again. Same symbol, same colors. He was very urgent about them, and nearly screamed when he showed them to me, telling me they were important. How, I do not know. However, I recognize this symbol from the snake hallucination Alice had about a month ago.

 He drew this when I asked him to show me what the Tailor looked like in his dream. I asked him to draw a face, or some hair on him but Brian seemed set on him remaining faceless. He added the blood in last, I'm not sure if it was a mistake on his part or not, but its definitely like the dream he told me about.

Lastly, is this. It seems even though the nightmare scared him, he was still able to draw some birds for me. Apparently my love of birds rubs off on others. They are rather cute, aren't they?

Sleepwalking Research (Somnambulism)

Although I don't think my normal studies go deeply into the realms of sleepwalking (also known as Somnambulism), I found some time over the last few days to do some research for the benefit of Alice. I wasn't able to find many exact descriptions of what one does while sleepwalking, but I have found three key facts which may or may not lead to an answer.

1.) Sleepwalking is thought to be genetic; if your parents sleepwalked then it is likely you would as well.


2.) It is also linked to various disorders; I wasn't able to find Schizophrenia among them but it's very possible that the disorder was a link in the chain. It may have even strengthened it.

3.) People who sleepwalk do not usually remember it. Which explains just why one wouldn't remember writing the Morse Code down, and even more so the actions done while sleepwalking are said to be rather odd. I'm sure this varies amongst the people, and the person who spends less time outside will have less episodes of going outside than a person who does spend a lot of time outside.




Before I simply leave this off there, I decided to go a little bit into the odder realms of dreams. I wanted to find a meaning to the Morse Code being written. I don't normally trust this stuff, but maybe your memory will be jogged, right Alice? It certainty couldn't hurt to post some explanations of what the dream may have been, and will at least  give a good laugh.

Trees: I found various things on specific trees, but I took it to mean a generic tree. Like a forest, so I followed a generic description. It was, among other things; new hopes, desires, dreams, knowledge, protection, and stability. As a side note, as I think it's worth mentioning, if there were crows in the trees, it represents death. Such a grim outlook on a beautiful bird, another reason why I really can't take these things seriously.

Morse Code: It seems that something in your dream while you sleep walked showed that you had to express something. Or something was hidden, and you had to quickly figure it out. I admit this doesn't fit with the trees, and as I can't look up 'SEEYOU', I'm not sure what to make of the Morse Code other than it being a side effect of your sleepwalking.


Eyes: I had trouble trying to find ones for Eyes, as it's the closest I can come to 'SEEYOU'. Everything I found was about the eyes being closed, but since they were obviously open, I'm going to put down the opposite of what it says. It means to accept the truth of something, which in a way conflicts with the Morse Code altogether.

It's.........interesting. I don't remember the source sites, but I used at least three of them, they all basically told the same things.

Bird Watching

Today I found some time to do some bird watching. I had both my cell phone and my regular camera, but even so it was hard to get good pictures. A lot of the trees hid the birds from view, and they were being very skittish as always (I don't blame them, really). After cropping and messing around with some of the pictures so the birds are in better view, I only had a couple pictures, but I like them so I'll share them.

The gold finches, as promised. I was lucky to get these three, I didn't notice there were three until I zoomed in more on the picture.

I believe those are Sparrows, if they don't look like them I blame my camera (or my horrible photo editing, haha).

I don't know exactly why I took this picture, but something told me too when I saw all the trees. I like the picture, even though there aren't any birds in it (which really surprised me, you'd think there would be).