The tapping has changed tone the last few days; He no longer is simply trying to get my attention. He has been scratching into the door, creating some god awful sound that is much worse than any termite or mouse.
And today when I woke up, there was a 5 carved into the grain of the door.
It was a new appearance, I did not notice damage to the door before now. He is toying with my mind, wanting me to forget and deny things existing. Wants me to deny the fact Alice is not responding not because she does not want to, but because she cannot. He wants to give me time to make a 'wise' decision, perhaps He believes I will go calmly. I would rather stay and starve than run to Him, I am not a schizophrenic whose mind welcomes such intervention. I studied the mind, I know how it works. Simple scare tactics and torture will not make me run to him for safety. No amount of Stockholm Syndrome will make me do such a thing.
Monday, January 30, 2012
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Visitor
I was unsure of it, but I know now. There is someone inside my house. Each night they humor themselves with tapping, ever so slightly, on my bedroom door. I don't dare look out and see who it is...I know who it is.
I was hoping He'd lose interest, or that Alice would somehow convince Him otherwise. But He is patient. I can't leave and go outside; the crows still remind me they are watching, they caw in their enormous flocks-their murders-and wait for me to appear.
I will try to wait Him out, for now. I can only hope His patience does not wear thin.
...As for Alice, I don't see why I wait for her to do anything. She has been silent since her last post and has left no way for me to contact her. Perhaps she's found her way into some schizophrenic stupor and gotten herself killed.
I was hoping He'd lose interest, or that Alice would somehow convince Him otherwise. But He is patient. I can't leave and go outside; the crows still remind me they are watching, they caw in their enormous flocks-their murders-and wait for me to appear.
I will try to wait Him out, for now. I can only hope His patience does not wear thin.
...As for Alice, I don't see why I wait for her to do anything. She has been silent since her last post and has left no way for me to contact her. Perhaps she's found her way into some schizophrenic stupor and gotten herself killed.
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