Sunday, October 31, 2010


I spent the night giving out candy. It was lonely, even though I did see some of the children. I was still a little cut up about what happened with Alice (if you don't know..well just look at some comments, I don't need to go into it), but something made it a lot better. I saw Brian, I don't know what he went as because he stayed away from me, but I saw him. I'm sure of it.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Escape Artist

I woke up today to find Roc missing, with the cage door open. The way her cage is, it can't be opened from the inside as it works something like a draw bridge. I spent the morning looking for her, and eventually found her sleeping while perched on top of my dresser's mirror. I had to look away to get her down, but thank goodness I eventually did.

I kept a good eye on her the rest of the day, and caught her wedging her beak between the bars of the cage and door, trying to push it open. I startled her by saying her name, and hopefully this won't be a common occurrence. I might just have to go buy a lock to make sure.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Almost Hallowe'en

Well this is the last week of October, really, and I've been noticing my class work is now slowing down. Even college-age students are quite excited about Hallowe'en, I know at least I am. Even though I don't plan on partying or anything like that, I do plan on giving out candy at least. Maybe I'll be able to say hello to some of the children, I haven't seen them since Brian's vanishing...

Speaking of which, the Day Care called yesterday; they'll be re-opening  on November 3rd, so that means I'll be heading back to work soon. I tried to ask if they found Brian, but they hung up immediately after telling me when they were opening. I won't be mentioning Brian to them, or to anyone really as it  has become a touchy subject. It being so makes me think the worst, I'm afraid.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

School Work

I missed more then I thought I did when I was off that week from school. I've been spending more time on homework and school projects, so much so I haven't had much time to do anything. Not that it changes much, it has been horribly cold and rainy lately. Still, I've been growing more and more worried about Brian when I do have my free time (which is spent talking to Roc for the most part, she's a good listener even if she doesn't understand a word I say, lol). I haven't gotten any calls from police, or calls from the Day Care itself saying when or if it will reopen.

I'm beginning to think Brian's parents are keeping this all hush-hush, out of the newspaper and general media. Not that I can blame them, seeing as that would mean more questioning and more interviews, plus making those drawings of Brian's more public than they already are (so many of them I wasn't allowed to post as I said). I really hope they find something about his whereabouts soon.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Researching Day Three

Instead of rambling on about what I researched, I think it is best if I just link it.
Just..oh god.
My reaction when I stumbled upon him was horrified, and if it weren't for the fact it says he is a fabrication I would still be so.
Which wouldn't be a good way to start the week, as I'm going back to school tomorrow so I don't fall too far behind.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Researching Day Two

Today I decided to look up something a little different. I looked up birds, but to be more specific, Paranormal Birds or Mythological Birds. I don't know what I was looking for, really, but I'd thought I'd share some things.

Before I knew what I was really looking for, I found a story about a bird called, Mareli Chidiya, or 'Death Bird' that inhabits India and Indian Lore. According to the story, the bird is a mixture of an eagle and vulture, and is a normal bird in all other aspects. In fact, it hardly ever makes a sound except for on certain occasions. When it does screech it signals death, and that anyone who hears it will either die or someone near will die. The article wasn't exact on who dies, as more then one person heard the screech and not all of them died.
I also found an article relating to ghost birds. I wasn't in favor of reading the whole story, but it related to a boy seeing a pet bird around the house whom had died weeks before.

After looking up those stories, I decided to look up Roc's namesake; a roc, of course. I didn't find much of any interest on Rocs other than them being great, big birds. However, I did find a few stories on a Thunder Bird, one such story being in the book 'Pet Ghosts' by Joshua Warren. The Thunder Bird was said to be a very large creature, something like a pterodactyl. One story told of a group of the birds trying to take a boy, Marlon Lowe, but because he fought against being picked up that he was dropped. What I found disturbing, however, was another story that took place in 1890. As the story goes, men killed the Thunder Bird, and pictures were taken of it to be posted in the 'Tombstone Epitaph'. For some reason, though, the archives of the newspaper show no bird picture. People claimed to have seen the picture, but it seemed to have vanished. The only evidence of the article was about a dead bird being found with a 16 foot wingspan.

That's all I have to say, really. I plan on posting some pictures of Roc up soon, it's been raining here a lot so I haven't been able to even attempt bird watching, sadly.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Reseaching Day One

I'm going to post these in days because I bet I'll end up doing a lot of these in the future. I haven't been able to go back to work since the incident, as the police are very hush-hush about it all. I suspect they'll be calling me any day now, but that's besides the point. I've also not been going to class since the incident. In order to keep my mind off of anything that might make me think about it, I've been spending hours simply in the bookstore and library researching.

I decided to spent most of my day researching about hallucinations. A lot of the books were very, very vague on the subject, and internet text even more so. However, I was able to collect a few facts about the hallucinations. These came from various sources, both internet and text that I collected general notes on.

- Capgras syndrome which is common in those with schizophrenia causes the person afflicted to see a familiar person's 'replica' which looks similar to the familiar person.
- I also came upon Fr├ęgoli syndrome, which is the confusion of an individual as a familiar person in disguise.
- Hallucinations can start as simply as being shapes, faces, or torsos. As threatening as the Faceless man sounds like something that could easily happen to anyone who hallucinated.
- There are also fairly basic Visual Hallucinations, which seem to include human, or human-like figures and is triggered by a false perception of sight. These hallucinations can also be very basic, or even take on forms of notable or religious figures, such as the devil.

The last thing I came about really caught my attention, it was mood triggering the hallucination. That a hallucination might be brought on being either following one's emotion (such as death, gloom, or general negative things), or not following one's emotion. Such has being in a happy mood triggering a not so happy hallucination.
As to be expected, I also checked out a few bird books to help me pass the time. I really miss bird watching, but it's getting colder and harder to find them out in the forest. I still plan to look for them though, the book really takes my mind off of everything.