The Answer

I was recently e-mailed by someone, informing me what exactly Alice's entry 'Look Inside' meant. I was told to do one of the following;
1. Save the picture without changing its format.
2. Extract it using a program like Winrar; there is another picture hidden within the original.
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1. Save the picture without changing format.
2. Right click > Open with > Choose default program.
3. Select Winrar, and open the image.

The result you get is this..disturbing image.

It is a picture of a man I've seen before. Alice has described him many, many times. On his shoulder is a bird, but what really caught my attention was the number in the corner. The number 5, it seems familiar to me, like a dream I cannot quite remember.

A Strange Letter

Before I left for class this morning, I noticed an envelope just inside my door. It was unmarked; no stamp, no sender, no address. The envelope was sealed, and when I opened it, the letter inside was even stranger. The envelope looked modern, as if it had never been used before, but the letter was old. I was able to scan the letter when I came home today;

If you can't read it, it says:
Mary,
Run, child, run as fast as you can.

It then is signed with only that strange mark, which reminds me of a bird. I don't know who sent it, but whoever did sent it directly to me, actually taking the time to hand deliver it. As for the message, all I can tell is it is a sort of warning, but I am unsure as to what. If I am the 'child', what is it I am running from? And..the hand writing. It seemed child-like, but also seems..different, somehow. I don't think a child wrote this. It is all very perplexing.

In Memory of Brian

Today was Brian's funeral. I didn't speak or say anything about him and nor did I stay long because I wasn't family, but I still couldn't bring myself to go to work. The day care understands, but I'll have to head back soon. His death wasn't related to them this time, so my off time is only allowed at so much...I came home and found myself reading an old book of mine. 'Peter Pan', more specifically, 'Peter Pan in Kensington Gardens'. It made me feel better, until I came toward the end of the book. I'll share it with you, it made me think of Brian so much...

"But he still has a vague memory that he was a human once, and it makes him especially kind to the houseswallows when they visit the island, for houseswallows are the spirits of little children who have died. They always build in the eaves of the houses where they lived when they were humans, and sometimes they try to fly at a nursery window, and that is why Peter loves them the best of all the birds."

I'm not sure exactly what a house swallow is, I only get pictures of the barn swallows. Still, if I ever see one I'll be sure to take its picture. For Brian's sake....

Police

I was called in to have my questioning session with the police today, it was all very sudden so I didn't have time to say when I was going. The questions started out normal enough, asking me when I had started working at the day care, as well as what I was doing in school. However, it wasn't long into the interview that the questions became more personal than I had expected. They asked me things like; what were my hobbies? Did I like birds? Did I have any pets? What kind? I was very confused by this, until they handed me a disc. They said that on the disc was a recording they had taken on scene, and they were quite worried for me. I listened to it at the station, and I have to say I am just as worried about it. They also let slip that Brian's scars seemed to be caused by a bird; not a bird like Roc, but a larger kind. I have the feeling they think I'm a strong suspect in this kidnapping. But the following video I made, with the audio recording, proves that I couldn't (and have not even thought of) doing such a thing.



That strange distorted voice that cuts into the sound of birds says; Mary, the trees. Look towards the trees, Mary. It had to have been from the forest, but why or how it was created..I just don't know.

Reseaching Day One

I'm going to post these in days because I bet I'll end up doing a lot of these in the future. I haven't been able to go back to work since the incident, as the police are very hush-hush about it all. I suspect they'll be calling me any day now, but that's besides the point. I've also not been going to class since the incident. In order to keep my mind off of anything that might make me think about it, I've been spending hours simply in the bookstore and library researching.

I decided to spent most of my day researching about hallucinations. A lot of the books were very, very vague on the subject, and internet text even more so. However, I was able to collect a few facts about the hallucinations. These came from various sources, both internet and text that I collected general notes on.

- Capgras syndrome which is common in those with schizophrenia causes the person afflicted to see a familiar person's 'replica' which looks similar to the familiar person.
- I also came upon Frégoli syndrome, which is the confusion of an individual as a familiar person in disguise.
- Hallucinations can start as simply as being shapes, faces, or torsos. As threatening as the Faceless man sounds..it sounds like something that could easily happen to anyone who hallucinated.
- There are also fairly basic Visual Hallucinations, which seem to include human, or human-like figures and is triggered by a false perception of sight. These hallucinations can also be very basic, or even take on forms of notable or religious figures, such as the devil.

The last thing I came about really caught my attention, it was mood triggering the hallucination. That a hallucination might be brought on being either following one's emotion (such as death, gloom, or general negative things), or not following one's emotion. Such has being in a happy mood triggering a not so happy hallucination.
As to be expected, I also checked out a few bird books to help me pass the time. I really miss bird watching, but it's getting colder and harder to find them out in the forest. I still plan to look for them though, the book really takes my mind off of everything.

Lights Out

I'm on here so early because both my classes and my job were canceled today. A nasty storm hit, and knocked out the power at my house, the school, and the day care. I was sent home early from work only to come home to a darkened house with a storm raging. I checked on Roc and found her to be very joyful even with the storm raging. The power came back around 2 am last night, and I got calls from the school and work saying not to come in. When I looked outside, it was mysteriously foggy (more so then I've ever seen after a storm like that), which faded around lunchtime.

Oh, I should also note, in the little time I was at work yesterday was strange. Brian was there, but I didn't have much time to talk to him or see why he was there on a Wednesday. He seemed to be coloring, I'll have to ask him what he was coloring tomorrow.

Job Hunting

I've decided to look into getting a job, as much as I'd love to simply keep my mind focused on my studies, bird watching, and Roc none of those generate any sort of income. I've been looking around at a few places, and already I've ruled out working at some fast food place. Even though I don't mind people there is a lot of pressure and stress with working with a lot of people over the course of the day.

There is however, a Day Care center that is near the forest where I bird watch. This place interests me as it would help me with my studies (after all there is a lot of psychological study in children), and give me some experience with simply working with them. I say children because I really don't do well with babies, I think 6 years and up will be the age range I'll work the best with. After I work up the courage to go and fill out a résumé, we can hope for the best. Roc certainly approves of me getting a job (I've been talking to her, she's the only other creature I really talk to besides family), and seems very excited about being able to be in a quiet room all day without me walking around.